surprisingly i didnt feel a sense of remorse, until ft called. oh gosh, how did it go out of hand like seriously? its a harmless sorta fun that i know... no teachers approve of and stuffs. but a PHONECALL!? seriously, thats wow. ahh.. and i carn stand the fact that ft is so uptight over valerie. i mean, carn she tell valerie is just acting..!? all the fa zhuo is all during MALE teachers lesson, OR if she doesnt want to take a test. look at the pattern, i almost didnt have the heart to tell ft and stuffs... i mean she is putting so much effort just so that valerie does not have a fa zhuo when it is just a way of getting attention. okay, so some were real, the beginning ones were real at least, but hello!? see the attention she is getting? everyone cares for her, i mean we are all humans and if we see one having difficulty we would definitely think past all the bad stuffs she has done and help her first. and she takes advantage. its pissing. gah, tmr still need to go look for her. it really isnt that bad a mistake but a mistake nonetheless. oh gosh, we must take note of the classes to be really strict with ourselves manz. i dun wan these kind of things to happen. now im thinking whether to tell mom and dad, but oh well, they have enough things to worry about, so I SHALL NOT TELL THEM. and no one comes to my blog anw, so i'll post it online for some random passer-by. but seriously. that close to zero.

Greyhound chases hare @ Yahoo! Video

just thought to share this really awesome video. hahahaha, the ones who betted on that hound must hav'been cursing the hare... but really... the rest of the hounds seems really unaffected and were focused on its path and it goal. Espescially the one who exceeded the rest, you can really tell that it feels its satisfaction of beating the rest to the finishing line, and had the sprint of a winner. omy, i want that hound. looks fluffy :)

i dunno.
everything is so complicated
would someone unwind this twindle of hopelessness?
im to refrain from vulgarity (?)
so im figuring out words that would fit in, like disastrous, atrocious, mind-blowing, body-petrifying etc
something seem so different
yet i know this is all a facade
so why does it exist
what fits in?
why cant i stop it, why is it beyond me?
i carn help but be affected, does it show the weakness in my charater?
we've been doing alot of character analysing in language arts
and through little dialogue you can tell someone's character
the power of words and choice of words
freakshow
for people to gawwk at
laugh at
something that just exist there
but people see and walk past
to say it exist is overestimation
to it doesnt would be a fallacy
fair is foul and foul is fair
chance would have me,
why, i might become something
its all self fulfilling prophecy
before you know it you have fallen so deep conspiracies


ya know.
i think im really screwed.
for real.
really.
i carn understand anything that's going on. i mean whats worse than that?

i dunno what i should say.
things might turn out this way, but it might not turn my way.
and somehow i dun even know what is my way anymore.
im tired, i seem to be always tired.
why?
piles of homework waiting for me to reach to them, i can feel their outstretch hands...
interviews and decisions... im not sure whats right and wrong anymore.
such confusion, such fuss... laughing corpse 6m metres underground.