i have to say im very sad.
im very sad as my mom gonna lock the computer up
gonna lock the computer up from 1st jan
1st jan is going to be hell
going to be hell the whole year long
year long gonna be sickening and sickening
and sickening state is not what i want
i want what i have to say

Sometimes i really think that all this is meaningless. While we look for the best, you have to understand that everyone's best is just different. Of course, without an aim, you'll achieve nothing. I sometimes feel that there is no end to things, and that everything is just plain stupid. You follow what everyone else is doing, who even started it in the first place? I just want to be perfect. But what exactly is perfect? My perfect and your perfect might totally be different... Ending this horrendous year on this note, lets welcome 2011.

11 New Year Resolutions

1. to follow God's Words & to pray everyday
2. to always listen to my mama & papa & (occassionally) nee-san
3. to always remember my aim for my grades
4. to pass my piano G8 ASAP
5. to pass my cello exam well
6. to get GWHs in SYF
7. to stop believing in others, its time to believe in yourself
8. to practise self-control
9. to stop being dumb and try to be nice to everyone, you carn please everyone...
10. to look fwd & stop pondering on whats happen in the past, if things are like that, let it be, it aint your problem (if you didnt cause it)
11. to stop being stupid & keep getting hurt all the time

my new year resolution is to follow them all, and hope that God will guide the way and that I will follow His lead.

i just wanna be really happy ~♥

ah dang!

the mouse carn play now... and the se chalet tmr? i hv no idea where it is and how to get there... so i figure i dont think i'll be able to be on time... or maybe worse.

gotta finish chores.
gotta get going, 3 books left.
library is tomo.

dang dang dang.

*found a new hair style tdy*
*SMILE*

stupid level nester who doesn't want to harvest
im so angry at it, and its the brown one... the ugly one.
ugggh.

busking with the snrs was suprbly fun.
and what we thought was some peeps who 'stole' our busking area actually came to sing carols with us and allowed us to keep the money, how nice. and they were pretty high and fun too :) wish we could start our own se friends contact list, and have our own email so people could contact us for events and performances...

some old old snrs showed up and i was very elated. i mean, when do we get the honor of playing with the really pro ones?? Cool huh. We were very high, playing se's 'song', Canon and all the remixes and variations... Damn cool.

I was awesome-d-fied.












i hate it when you get so drained
and that people uses your name to curse and swear
i hate it when people double crossed
and that its so that they could survive
i hate it when i dunno what i am supposed to do
and i want to do everything right and possible
i hate it when i get this feeling
and i know that they won't be anyone around for me to pour myself out
i hate it when i realise im blogging this
and i know the 'world' would be talking about this
i hate it when people say something
and mean another
i hate it when people i love becomes different
and i know that i've been cheated
i hate it when i know people are right
and all for the wrong reasons
i hate it when i know im not alone in this world
and yet the world doesnt want me to feel that im not alone
i hate it all
but i still have to feel with it
this is a hate post
i know i'll regret posting this up one day.

so err the epic of the day...

so apparently we are going busking, strings ensemble. Then I, i stress on the I, told my bestie that we could meet earlier... but apparently my schedule that day was packed.

morning: ah ma hse for tang yuan
afternoon: meet mom
night 6-8:busking

so apparently my mom took leave cos i told her to and she had leave that she needed to clear. Then afterwards we changed the plan cos i wanted to go to the library and bestie wanted to shop for xmas presents. Mom was thus pissed that she was asked to change the leave that ended up unchangeable thus wasting a half day of leave which she hated so much till she accussed me of putting my bestie in an more important position than her. WOW.

i kinda expect her to tell papa and nee-san, and ten i'll get scolded, and i would be ignored of who knows how long and they tell me they dunno where i got this temper and pettiness. WOW.

omigosh reading this awesome book on vampires + mages + faery (a little) + demons + all sorts of stuffs including twin problem... i kinda dislike the twin problem stuffs... and grandma issue? oh please. But mix-demon-vampire villian, coool. Mix-vamp-mage main character, awesome! Cute mage guy? Uh huh... thats more like it :)


just back from bali~
fun place to be. and i have just received 2 tags from unknown people... gosh, i still miss the peeps back in taiwan and hongkong~ miss me? o well, my schedule is pretty packed in anyways, so i need to chiong chiong chiong heads up for me!when i get something to blog about, well.. i'll blogg, till then so long! lemme tag a picture on the blog first...

saw this news online, authorities allowing the public to name the Downtown East Line

went for cello lesson today~ AWESOME.

i told mr song that i wanna try the grade 5 exams, he's gonna sms me the songs, AND I HAVE TO BUY THE BOOKS... note the 'S'? Thats 3 books. OMIGOSH. wow. anyway, they say its 100% sure pass, just how much you pass by... if i do get dist, it would be the second in my whole musically ... life.

talked to Dyllis, she's AWESOME!! haha, didnt know that the score/book on chair squint problem is not only me... ((:

gotta keep track of those little people, skip se and never give leave.. anyhow use the bow and cellos... AIYOYO.

smileys~ i thot of a good quote today...

There's no point hoping for the past (~♥) to return, we can only hope to
return to the past in future...

cool right??

i think im going to lose all my readers if i dun start blogging.

was back from my bsp trip of 24 days in awesome taiwan and 4 days in amazing hong kong~ loved it there, like seriously... except some burps and hics which i would be mentioning here.. anyone wanting to know the details may sms me or msn me or email me. Preferably email (:

just heard from janice who heard from weilee that lilaoshi gonna be our ft again next year, which sounds good, just carn wear coloured hairband hahaha~ but its alright, im sure i'll be able to go thru next yr w/o my coloured hairband.

results aint looking good, leaving for bali next week and a whole lot of cca stuffs cranking up so gotta boost myself up a little bit and tell myself to try not to be distracted... with stuffs. HAHA yeap you know what im talking about.

SYF next year, need to do a list of what im supposed to achieve next year 2011 YEAP.

And my mom took my library cards away. that means no books for the whole year, from the library... you know where my books are going to be coming from anyway~ :D cheeky cheeky but i do have to hold myself baccccccck~

funny thing is that after being together with somebody for a long period of time day and night, i carn seem to stand that person. happens all the time. hmm must be me, or just the fact that the person is not THE person... oh what am i talking about. i think you can only live with ur family day and night... OMG its late gotta run (cheeeeesiest line but no pun intended)~~

Merry Christmas to you all and wishing (me) and everyone a happy 2011!